Past, Present, and Future

Sometimes I wonder what happened to certain people I've known at one time or another in my life.  Meaning: where are they now?  And do they ever think, "Hey, I wonder what Reagan's up to these days?"  Usually it's friends I've lost touch with from either high school or college.  But then there are the random people I remember.  Bobby Kahey.  Does he still work as a cashier at Albertsons?  B/c that's the last thing I remember him doing, so he must still be there, at that same check out line, with that same expression that I'm the last person he wanted to see.  Probably b/c I made fun of him.  Not directly, but I laughed when others did.  They had to names for him.  Blow-jobby Gay-hee (weird and yet clever in a way) and Skabi (b/c he loved Ska and talked about it way more than Ska should be talked about).  We were 17/18ish at the time, and I think that's a little old to be calling someone names.  But we were young, even if it didn't seem so at the time.  Looking back, now I know.  I also wonder about Cara Wonders.  I heard many things after high school.  1) She was impregnated by this guy at another high school and tried to kill the baby by hitting a volleyball against her stomach.  Isn't this the sickest rumor?  Honestly, who came up with this?  It's like all they knew about her was that she was on the volleyball team, so they used the only info they had to make up something horrible.  2) She went to college at an all girls school and became a lesbian.  This could be true, it could happen.  Very typical of the small town I grew up in, spread a rumor that someone's, don't say it, ho-mo-sex-ual, and it's the talk of the town.  We only had two gay guys in our school that were actually "out" and they were both ridiculed, one worse than the other b/c he wasn't as flamboyant and therefore more of a target for teasing.  Like he was hiding something.  Like calling him "gay" was an insult.  He was.  Stop trying to turn a fact into a dirty word.  I've recently reconnected with few friends from both high school and college.  I just started thinking it was the saddest thing in the world that I used to know these people so well, see them every day, and now I don't know anything about their lives.  And this happens all the time.  Just because I've emailed or called them doesn't mean we're caught up and things are the way they used to be.  Most likely, I won't call again.  I have new people in my life.  I can't hold onto everyone in my past.  It's just weird to me, that's all.
Reagan